So the other day I told my son “This is it… I’m done eating like a slob” and he said “I feel like you say that a lot Mom.” I laughed way too hard, and he said “‘One day’… or ‘day one’ mom?” Ok ok. Well, I’ve been thinking about that, while eating my ice cream, and I’m going to do it! Maybe I’ll start eating a little healthier, yes… but I’m going to start writing! I’ve been wanting to write a book forever. I have written some children’s books…I even had one published. (The Dinkadunk Tree and Me… you should read it. It’s a book about peer pressure.) But I want to write a big book… I’ve always wanted to. And I’ve had a lot of ideas, but never really started. After the past two years of my life, I really, REALLY want to write. The only problem is, I don’t think a lot of people would even believe most of it. They’d throw the book over their should and be like “nope… did not happen” – but it DID happen and I need to write it down.
So I’m starting to write, today! Not a book… but a blog. It’s a place to start… a new habit. My daughter gets her drivers license in two weeks, so no more driving her to school! Or anywhere. No more Driving Miss Lyla. I will miss it, cuz we talk mostly in the car. But I won’t miss it. She’s the busiest person I know. I also like to get up and read my vedanta book or use my mala beads. I can still do that too. But I’m going to start writing.
So I have a problem in my life – Every day (no matter what time I go to bed) I wake up early and can’t fall back to sleep. I’m talking REALLY early. Usually somewhere around 4 am. I peek at the clock, which shines up on my ceiling, and it’s always way to early. always. I roll over, and try to fall back to sleep. If hard things are happening in my life, I for sure won’t fall back to sleep. I’ll make up crazy scenarios and have fake conversations in my head for an hour and a half. I can use some yoga breathing exercise and it really does help, as long as I can keep my mind there… that’s the tricky part. It works much better than my DTAI technique… when I just squish my eyes shut and frantically think “Don’t Think About It Don’t Think About It Don’t Think About It Don’t Think About It.” That one never works. Don’t try it. You will.
So today I thought to myself, “Self? (thank you Mrs. Mendro, my algebra teacher at Dundee Crown High School)… Self? You should just start getting up and writing. You have a website and you’re supposed to blog. You should start doing that when you can’t sleep!” So I said “Yes Nancy, you should! You don’t have to write about the benefits of Ashtanga or the effects of yin yoga on your golf game! Be yourself… you’re good at that.”
I will blog about yoga and owning a yoga studio and breathing techniques, blah blah blah. But mostly it’ll just be my thoughts. A journal. I share a lot about my personal life in my classes… more than most teachers do I think. It helps me, and sometimes I think it helps the people in my class when I’m “real” and share too much. I’m sure I’ve lost a few people by doing that too “That old man is nuts… I just wanted to get some exercise.” But I’ve always liked writing, and it has always been helpful to me to write… So I’ll blog. You just have to do something 21 times to make it a habit, right? Something like that?
So here I go. Day one.